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Abracadabra : Insanity

August 2, 2025

Always remember the power of words…I decided to write about Life on the Edge of (in)Sanity. It started as a joke. My house was full of kids and chaos years ago. The idea was for the book to be a Chronicle of That Life. But the concept never felt quite right to me. And so, while I had the title first, and I certainly had enough stories to fill a book, and there definitely were some relatively insane things that happened in those tales, I felt like I hadn’t hit the mark.The universe, however, had heard my words. Without my knowledge or conscious consent, I had a subtle and soooo slow descent into insanity. I didn’t realize it at all. I thought it was overwhelm. Or depression. Or just me being weak and not able to handle my life. Or the culmination of bad choices. I was fine. Until I wasn’t. This became cyclical. The bad periods became the norm. But still, no one knew. Or, most people didn’t. Until I started cracking. Each part of my life developed a little fissure that exposed a deeper part I had kept hidden. A lifetime of keeping up appearances and I literally couldn’t do it anymore. I started to lose my grip, slowly, a little at a time. I tried. I tried to get help without opening up. I tried.But then, do you see what happened here? I wanted the book to be real, to reach people. So it had to be Authentic. The universe provided. Authentic insanity? Check. Good job.So I’m not really crazy. I just manifested insanity, so I could tell other people I understood, and I actually would understand.Once I realized what my life had become, I had to fix it. Fix it? Ha. “Fixing it” was not the answer, in case you were wondering. “Fixing it” was just another layer to be unraveled. Or chapters to be lived, so a tale could be told.The real question is….did I go crazy because I wanted to write a book….or was I inspired to write this book because my higher self knew it was what I needed to break free of myself and heal?Pre Order Coming Soon, sign up to be notified HERE!